indeed finding the stillness
this week. I have had plenty of time to find it and sit there, but I am distracting myself constantly.
Dustin is unwell today. I packed 5 boxes, nursed Cedar plenty of times, he is on his 3rd nap today. Q just came in after playing with a neighbor girl. She is hungry.
Yesterday I was having a poo poo party for myself. I felt like no one liked me. I read in one of my books that Empathetic feel that often.
Last night I was in a whirl of a negative reality that I hadn't experienced in a long time. I have been covering up by smoking. I hate myself keep rolling threw. I wanted to cut myself and bleed. I took 10 Valerian threw out the night just to feel better in my skin.
Around 4am i made myself chant I love myself I love myself I love myself over and over. Even if I got distracted with the uglies. I awoke this morning at 9am feeling more like myself. THANK YOU! I just couldn't be in that mood anymore.
