Post Pardom the 4th trimester

Cedar is 12 weeks today! The 4th trimester is over!
This postpartum has been worse than birth! Birth lasts like 5 minutes, or so it seems. It burns like hell but as long as you push threw it its over! But the catch is its the beginning of the 4th trimester.
It all starts with the delivery of the placenta. It took me longer to birth my placenta than it did to birth Cedar! 45 minutes to get that thing out. It hurt too! You have to push it out, like a poop. But you stomach muscles are gone, your pelvic floor doesn't exist, your tired and your body feels like it was hit by a train. My back muscles spasmed up right after I had him and they didn't let up for about a 3 months after birth.
After the placenta was out they push on your abdomen for like 4 hours, every 15 to 30 minutes to get all that extra blood out and make sure my uterus was going back to size. I was so gracious doing this whole process.
My nipples where tender from day one of pregnancy. That should have giving it a way but no I can be so naive at times. When Cedar latched on for the first time it hurt. I am glad he didn't want to eat his first day. But once we got home, OUCH! OMG I was so miserable! I just pushed a human being out my vagina now its sucking on my VERY tender nipples every 2 hours. I could only last 10 minutes at every nursing session before I had to have him stop. I would clench my ass, muscles, jaw, eyes everything to take away the burning pain.
Then 2 weeks later, nipples are starting to feeling better, I get hemorriods. From taking pain meds around the clock and being constipated  My body still hurts, no pelvic floor or stomach muscles, by back keeps spasming up. I changed my diet, ate more salads and nuts and seeds, started juicing once a day for about 2-3 weeks. But I didn't want to poop, it hurt! I couldn't walk or exercise because it took too much out of my body to strengthen up. All I did was sit and nurse all day. I finally went to see my midwife at 4 weeks postpartum and she got my a prescription for some coritsol to put up my butt. I HATE putting things in my ass hole, its not right and it hurts! But eventually they went away and that was a relief.
Now 12 weeks, I still have low back pain and now my left shoulder is starting to hurt again. My hair is falling out, I don't miss that at all! Hopefully by now postpartum is over and I can move on with my body again.
Its like the first trimester you body falls apart and again in the 4th trimester each one it miserable in its own way.